ADIOS PARA SIEMPRE CIK NAH.. SEMOGA DIRAHMATI ALLAH HENDAKNYA…
I was watching Buletin Utama when suddenly Dad barged through the front door and told Mom to go next door and "tengok Naba, Nah dah takde." Mom was confused. Gone where? Because only at 6pm mom went next door to send some jelly she made and gave it to Cik Nah herself.
I didn’t wait for an explanation and ran upstairs and told all my sisters. I changed into a pair of white cotton baju kurung in record 10 seconds and ran downstairs. Mom was still struggling with the fact that Cik Nah has passed away. I left her and rushed outside. I saw Along’s cousin in a car outside our gate and asked him what has actually happened. He himself said he doesn’t know, Cik Nah passed away too abrupt.. too fast.. I walked and watched the ambulance parked just inside Along’s gate. I walked slowly by the side of the ambulance. There she was, inside the ambulance. It felt surreal to see a pair of blue feet peeking through the white hospital cloth.
I quickly walked into the house and saw Adlin crying.. Oh God.. I had a feeling of deja vu. Memory of 4 years ago when I lost my 6th sister flashed through my mind. I hugged her and walked inside. Amalina was in her room, crying and didn’t stop saying "Allah.. Allah.." I tried to calm her down and hugged her.. That’s the best I could do. I know a hug is comforting because when we lost Anis, I was the eldest in the family (Kak We was in Korea) and Mom was too grief-stricken and I had to be strong for my sisters’ sake. I remember vaguely somebody hugged me in the ICU but nobody hugged me after that.. Only pats on the shoulder.. I felt so lost…
I wanted to cry so bad when i saw Amalina and Adlin but I know if i cried then they would feel worse. I watched the women prepared the bed to lay Cik Nah. Then Mom came. I asked Ayah Naba whether Along has been informed or not. He said Along’s auntie in Shah Alam is going to pick her and bring her home. I called Kak We and whispered to her. She was shocked. I hung up after promising I’ll call back for details later.
I went back home with Atiq to gather Surah Yaasin. We couldn’t find the ones we have printed in memory of Anis but we managed to find around eight of them so we brought that to Along’s. Me, Atiq and Didie sat near where Cik Nah was laid and recite the YaaSin.. Some time later my grandparents arrived (just got back from Terawih). I stayed there for a while and went home at nearly 10pm. I hugged Adlin at the door and told her to be strong and recite the Quran for Cik Nah. She even managed to thank me before I left. I couldn’t stop the tears from welling in my eyes. I’m amazed looking at how strong she’s holding up. And she’s only ten years old! I promised her I’ll return after sahur.
Ya Allah.. sesungguhnya mati itu pasti. Dan kami hamba-Mu hanya berserah, dan berharap segala amal diterima, dan dosa-dosa diampuni. It’s a big reminder that He can call us back to Him anytime and sometimes we don’t see it coming. Let’s pray that we will leave this world prepared..
Al-Fatihah buat Cik Nah. Semoga Along dan keluarga tabah dan sabar menghadapi ujian Allah yang sangat hebat ini…..
