LIVING LA VIDA LOCA!!!

i got a call from a retarded friend of mine taunting me about something i can’t reveal here. she hung up the second she finished, so i called her back hours later…

my my.. what have i got myself into this time?

i know this will be out sooner or later.. the secret that has been whispered to my girlfriends… but i hope i can stall and wait for the best time to come for everyone to know what I’ve been obsessing about since a month ago.. 

or maybe i’ll never let the secret out to those who actually matter… 

we’ll see… 

anyway, it’s been 10 days since i’m back and i haven’t even finished Chapter 1!! i hope tomorrow i won’t be lured to the PC and keep on downloading the fantastic PDA themes i found.. Oh God.. Please help me…

You are a Social Moderate (50% permissive) and an… Economic Liberal (33% permissive) You are best described as a: Centrist Link: The Politics Test on OkCupid Free Online Dating Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

You exhibit a very well-developed sense of Right and Wrong and believe in economic fairness. loc: (0, -63)

You are a Social Conservative (36% permissive) and an… Economic Liberal (31% permissive) You are best described as a: Totalitarian Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

You exhibit a very well-developed sense of Right and Wrong and believe in economic fairness. loc: (-50, -69)

I was watching Buletin Utama when suddenly Dad barged through the front door and told Mom to go next door and "tengok Naba, Nah dah takde."  Mom was confused. Gone where? Because only at 6pm mom went next door to send some jelly she made and gave it to Cik Nah herself. 

I didn’t wait for an explanation and ran upstairs and told all my sisters.  I changed into a pair of white cotton baju kurung in record 10 seconds and ran downstairs. Mom was still struggling with the fact that Cik Nah has passed away.  I left her and rushed outside.  I saw Along’s cousin in a car outside our gate and asked him what has actually happened.  He himself said he doesn’t know, Cik Nah passed away too abrupt.. too fast.. I walked and watched the ambulance parked just inside Along’s gate. I walked slowly by the side of the ambulance. There she was, inside the ambulance. It felt surreal to see a pair of blue feet peeking through the white hospital cloth. 

I quickly walked into the house and saw Adlin crying.. Oh God.. I had a feeling of deja vu. Memory of 4 years ago when I lost my 6th sister flashed through my mind. I hugged her and walked inside. Amalina was in her room, crying and didn’t stop saying "Allah.. Allah.." I tried to calm her down and hugged her.. That’s the best I could do. I know a hug is comforting because when we lost Anis, I was the eldest in the family (Kak We was in Korea) and  Mom was too grief-stricken and I had to be strong for my sisters’ sake. I remember vaguely somebody hugged me in the ICU but nobody hugged me after that.. Only pats on the shoulder.. I felt so lost…

I wanted to cry so bad when i saw Amalina and Adlin but I know if i cried then they would feel worse. I watched the women prepared the bed to lay Cik Nah. Then Mom came. I asked Ayah Naba whether Along has been informed or not. He said Along’s auntie in Shah Alam is going to pick her and bring her home. I called Kak We and whispered to her. She was shocked. I hung up after promising I’ll call back for details later.

I went back home with Atiq to gather Surah Yaasin. We couldn’t find the ones we have printed in memory of Anis but we managed to find around eight of them so we brought that to Along’s. Me, Atiq and Didie sat near where Cik Nah was laid and recite the YaaSin.. Some time later my grandparents arrived (just got back from Terawih). I stayed there for a while and went home at nearly 10pm. I hugged Adlin at the door and told her to be strong and recite the Quran for Cik Nah. She even managed to thank me before I left. I couldn’t stop the tears from welling in my eyes. I’m amazed looking at how strong she’s holding up. And she’s only ten years old! I promised her I’ll return after sahur.

Ya Allah.. sesungguhnya mati itu pasti. Dan kami hamba-Mu hanya berserah, dan berharap segala amal diterima, dan dosa-dosa diampuni. It’s a big reminder that He can call us back to Him anytime and sometimes we don’t see it coming. Let’s pray that we will leave this world prepared..

Al-Fatihah buat Cik Nah. Semoga Along dan keluarga tabah dan sabar menghadapi ujian Allah yang sangat hebat ini…..

I was awaken this morning at around 10am by an sms.  it was from hotlink but there’s another sms an hour before.  Of Nolee informing me Datin Seri Endon Mahmood, the wife of Malaysia Prime Minister, Pak Lah has passed away at 7.40am (later on TV it was said at 7.55am) in Putrajaya.  I only slept for 4 hours but suddenly i was wide awake and jumped from my bed.  I switched on the TV and saw that RTM and TV3 were airing people reciting Quranic verses but NTV7 did not.  So i thought it wasn’t out yet.

I called mom (using the house line) while forwarding the sms to my friend.  Mom told me it was all over the news already. Ler.. aku yang terlambat rupanya.  Shortly after it was "Berita Terkini" on TV3 and the presenter wore black suit with a cream coloured selendang in a show of respect.

And just now it was announced in TV3 that Allahyarhamah Datin Seri Endon will be buried at Precinct 20 Putrajaya after Asar prayer.

My deepest condolence goes to Pak Lah and family. When his mother died of natural causes in February 2004, Pak Lah telephoned Datin Seri in the United States, where she was undergoing treatment. She later told reporters that he said: "I’ve lost my mother and I don’t want to lose you too."

Allahyarhamah discovered she had breast cancer in 2002 following a checkup after her twin sister, Noraini, was earlier diagnosed with the disease. Noraini died in January 2004.

I hope the Premier of Malaysia who has just lost his "No.1 supporter" will be strong in facing this test from Allah. Segala yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya. Al-Fatihah…..

Haha.. this is hillarious.. i went to have dinner with Azman at the Secret Recipe in KB Mall, then we proceeded to Pacific and I got this fantastic Dior Crayon Eyeliner in Black.  Hehe maklumla raye dah dekat…

We went downstairs and entered Poh Kong coz Azman’s looking for platinum ring for himself. Unfortunately there’s only white gold there.  We tried a few rings and I was keeping in mind a few designs that i like for this year’s birthday present from mom.  Then we went to another jewellery store.

The sales girl asked "nak cari cincin tunang ker?" we both walked away from each other and said "eeww… !! no way!" ader ke patut dier ingat kitorang nak cari cincin tunang.  Siap suggest lagi yg one pair matching gitu.. hahahah.. me and Azman? no way! maybe some other Azmans will come my way, but not THAT Azman please.  We’re better off being buddies.

Mom called at about ten and we parted ways at the escalator.  And at the roundabout, surprise surprise, i saw the black kembara, now i could see the number clearly from the back: DAU 9767.  Anybody knows who owns this car?? i ran the red light and went after the kembara to get a closer look at him.. Cute, but i think there’s something wrong with his teeth.  Maybe i’ll get a MUCH better look at him when i next saw him on the road.  I made a U-turn in front of Muhibbah and sped home. Oh God.. kesengalan di bulan puase.. memang takde keje! Hihi… ;p

Yesterday I touched down at 2.25pm (me and elly saw the buddhist temple in Tumpat 5 minutes b4 we landed) and was greeted by Ku Zett and Didie and of course, Ayahanda.

Went straight back home (dad told me to drive - Man, i drove myself to KLiA and took the wheel again from KB airport back home!). 

I brought the girls (with Adlin) to the Stadium.. And.. my.. there was a feeling of deja vu  when it was like a "jejak kasih".. i met friends of mine in every lane i walked in!! And even saw Yusoff (minus his sleveless, hehe).  I couldn’t find Uddin’s Kebab at first but a friend i met told me there’s a bigger bazaar at the other end, in front of Perdana Specialist.  So i dragged the kids there and managed to buy beef kebab (pita chicken sold out!) at Uddin’s and Murtabak Pak Nik (best giler!).  Didie, adlin and me bought kebab but Zett wanted roti tempayan (naan). I also got some pudding to try (turned out not so good, so that’s the first & last).

We raced with a tinted black kembara.  I think the guy driving it was good looking but didn’t get to see him clearly.  If i’m not mistaken the reg. number was DAU 7976 or something like that. He even honked and wave when he overtook us.. i hope i’ll see him again on the road.. hihihi..

And breaking fast at home brings back back joy to me. I couldn’t help the glee i felt knowing I was breaking fast earlier than my sister in Shah Alam.. heheheh… psycho tak? 

Was so full i didn’t go to terawih.  Maybe i’ll go when Atiq comes home.

i woke up late today and even threw Ku Zett (who skipped skool 2day) out of my room.  I ironed her hair after she showered and that vain little sister of mine couldn’t stop admiring her reflection in the large mirror.  I took her to Tok Ku’s to "lapor diri" and send him the dictionary he asked kak we to buy, then we took off for stadium. 

Again i bought murtabak and again, the chicken pita kebab was sold out.  the guys told me to come earlier and i notice the somewhat confused look of the guys at the bazaar when they saw me holding Ku Zett’s hand.. oh damn, they must think that she’s my daughter instead of my sister!!! aaarrgghhh.. jatuh saham blue chip aku! cis.

The price comparison of KB and Shah Alam are :

Murtabak in Shah Alam : RM2 (tak sedap langsung!!!)  KB : RM1.20 (best bangat!!)

Kebab in Shah Alam : RM2/RM2.50 for pita    KB  : RM1.80/RM2 for pita

verdict : kebab here waaaayyyyy better and delicious, more beef compared to the ones in Shah Alam which are full with diced cucumber and tomatoes!!

This is a wonderful Ramadhan in Kota Bharu, bumi bertuah…… Aku bersyukur kepadaMu…

this is a simple one, an equivalent to additions and substractions in maths.  I’ll put up the algebra equivalent soon.

Disclaimer : i’m perfectly aware that not everyone will agree to this.  But i’m sure MAYLIN and AYU will back me up.  and bukan semua orang want this kind of criteria, but i know lots of my girlfriends do.

THE PERFECT GUY :

NEVER MISS A PRAYER + INTELLIGENT + GOOD LOOKING

but guess what.  nobody’s perfect. I’ll explain why.

NEVER MISS A PRAYER + INTELLIGENT + GOOD LOOKING = normally this type of guy is EGOTISTICAL and worse…. VAIN… who wants a guy who’ll hog the mirror more than you do?

The usual equation we always find are ( "=" also means "TAPI" )

NEVER MISS A PRAYER + INTELLIGENT = usually not good looking

NEVER MISS A PRAYER + GOOD LOOKING = girls are always SMARTER than them

INTELLIGENT + HANDSOME = TAK SMAYANG (sangat FAIL!)

OK, looks aren’t everything, let’s see how it goes if we substitute GOOD LOOKING with being a GENTLEMAN (courteous/polite/cultured/suave)

NEVER MISS A PRAYER + INTELLIGENT = tak gentleman pulak!!

NEVER MISS A PRAYER + GENTLEMAN = not that INTELLIGENT

INTELLIGENT + GENTLEMAN = TAK SMAYANG (sangat FAIL!)

But, I’m sure there’s a lot of guys out there who have all THREE criterias.  It’s up to us to find them, or up to them to notice us, or up to FATE to let us meet.  OR, maybe these guys are closer to you than you think they are, but you’re taking them for granted.